[Accidental Voice] Breakdown

[unseenspy]

[In response to this thread, Jay attempts to write his thoughts. However, his sobs quake his body so much, he decides to do a voice post instead. Unfortunately, in his emotional breakdown, he forgets to filter it from Jenova and her sons. He speaks in between sobs, with rasping breaths.]

That...that voice...Sephiroth referred to it as..."Mother..."

She said something...someone took his childhood...crushed him into a little death machine...it's just like me...although...it didn't sound like this mother was treating him any better....

[A pause as Jay cries some more, before continuing.]

I...never had a mother....both of my parents....they abandoned me. Why...why did they leave me...to be taken in by...him...

Sephiroth...I can't think of him as a bad person after hearing that...I just can't...

[The sobbing continues...]

Comments

[neverplaysfair]

[ Biggest asshole of a therapist ever, coming your way in 3... 2... ]

Rather dramatic of you to vent all your personal problems to anyone who will listen.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Yeah...it helps...

[neverplaysfair]

Do you honestly think everyone cares about your problems? Or are you just seeking the attention?

[ I did mention he's an asshole, right? >.> ]

[mikangirl.livejournal.com]

...you leave way too many of your posts unfiltered, Jay.

[This is a carefully neutral Nami. Hi.]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...

Hmm...you're right. I was careless...I wasn't thinking straight.

[mikangirl.livejournal.com]

[...she really doesn't know what to say. Nami's not a big believer in getting hung up on the past, but Jay sounds so upset. She's torn between trying to comfort him and giving him a virtual smack over the head and telling him to get over it. In the end, she just sighs.]

Well, it looks like you're going to be fielding a lot of jerks now. [Not that she's looking at the other replies or anything.]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

How disgusting.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Kadaj...

I wouldn't expect any other reaction from you.

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

What a useless person you are. I hope someone sets you straight, or gives you a real reason to cry.

[waitedinwinhill.livejournal.com]

Are you alright?

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

I'm...fine. I just...I need some time...

[waitedinwinhill.livejournal.com]

Well, if you need to talk, I'm willing to listen.

[Voice]

[esper-flight.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry meeting him stirred up memories for you.

...would it help to talk about it in person? You don't have to if you want, of course.

[Voice]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Perhaps...another time. I can't really think or talk straight right now...

[Voice]

[esper-flight.livejournal.com]

I understand.

[Voice]

[goldenglasses]

[Vash has no idea who Sephiroth is or most of what you're talking about but he cannot ignore someone who's clearly upset!]

Maybe your parents thought they were doing what was best for you. Maybe they couldn't take care of you and out of love had to give you up.

[Voice]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...They wouldn't think that if they knew exactly who took me in...

Re: [Voice]

[goldenglasses]

[He wants to hug you... so bad right now]

Maybe they didn't know. Parents aren't always perfect; but they try their best.

[chikyu-sakura.livejournal.com]

...

[silvergeneral.livejournal.com]

[Sephiroth is very much of the DOT DOT DOT UM NOW WHAT]

...You shouldn't let what is best left in the past have such a hold on you in the now.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

[And Jay is in the same state now. He thought he had let it go...but why was he still reacting like this?]

[Voice / Locked to Jay]

[fortunefail]

You wouldn't even think of him as a bad person if he were to go around, slaughtering half the world?

Parents aren't around for your entire life and the way you were raised doesn't mean anything. It's your own decisions that determine what kind of person you become. If you just sit back and allow your superiors to turn you into a thoughtless murderer, you're not just a 'bad person'. You're also weak.

[Voice / Locked to Jay]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...Has he actually done that?

[Yuan's right of course, but Jay won't admit it out loud...]

[voice]

[pfft-scumbag.livejournal.com]

[The sound of all that sobbing coming through that goddamn book makes Xanxus throw his glass against a wall before he grabs said book.]

If you want to fucking sob like some pathetic little piece of scum close your fucking book so I do not have to listen to it!

[The entire mallynapping already made his mood go below zero and he really isn't feeling like listening to crying scumbags over that journal whining over parents.]

[voice]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

[Jay could care less about the other negative comments he's received so far, but this one was just irritating.]

I don't recall forcing you to listen to it. If you don't like it, you're the one who should close your book.