[Accidental Voice] Breakdown

[unseenspy]

[In response to this thread, Jay attempts to write his thoughts. However, his sobs quake his body so much, he decides to do a voice post instead. Unfortunately, in his emotional breakdown, he forgets to filter it from Jenova and her sons. He speaks in between sobs, with rasping breaths.]

That...that voice...Sephiroth referred to it as..."Mother..."

She said something...someone took his childhood...crushed him into a little death machine...it's just like me...although...it didn't sound like this mother was treating him any better....

[A pause as Jay cries some more, before continuing.]

I...never had a mother....both of my parents....they abandoned me. Why...why did they leave me...to be taken in by...him...

Sephiroth...I can't think of him as a bad person after hearing that...I just can't...

[The sobbing continues...]

Comments

[neverplaysfair]

[ Biggest asshole of a therapist ever, coming your way in 3... 2... ]

Rather dramatic of you to vent all your personal problems to anyone who will listen.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Yeah...it helps...

[neverplaysfair]

Do you honestly think everyone cares about your problems? Or are you just seeking the attention?

[ I did mention he's an asshole, right? >.> ]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter if anyone cares, or if anyone pays attention. It helps to vent, plain and simple.

[neverplaysfair]

You could just as easily vent to a single person.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

[Now Jay has the distinct feeling that this guy's being an asshole. So it's time to return the favor.]

Sure. Would you like to volunteer, since you were so kind to respond?

[neverplaysfair]

If you have enough trust in this complete stranger to pour your heart out to him, then go ahead.

[mikangirl.livejournal.com]

...you leave way too many of your posts unfiltered, Jay.

[This is a carefully neutral Nami. Hi.]

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

How disgusting.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...

Hmm...you're right. I was careless...I wasn't thinking straight.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Kadaj...

I wouldn't expect any other reaction from you.

[mikangirl.livejournal.com]

[...she really doesn't know what to say. Nami's not a big believer in getting hung up on the past, but Jay sounds so upset. She's torn between trying to comfort him and giving him a virtual smack over the head and telling him to get over it. In the end, she just sighs.]

Well, it looks like you're going to be fielding a lot of jerks now. [Not that she's looking at the other replies or anything.]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

I'll deal with them as they come.

[mikangirl.livejournal.com]

Right. Best of luck.

[merepuppet.livejournal.com]

What a useless person you are. I hope someone sets you straight, or gives you a real reason to cry.

[waitedinwinhill.livejournal.com]

Are you alright?

[Voice]

[esper-flight.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry meeting him stirred up memories for you.

...would it help to talk about it in person? You don't have to if you want, of course.

[Voice]

[goldenglasses]

[Vash has no idea who Sephiroth is or most of what you're talking about but he cannot ignore someone who's clearly upset!]

Maybe your parents thought they were doing what was best for you. Maybe they couldn't take care of you and out of love had to give you up.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...Thanks.

[Yes, Jay can agree with the first "hope", but not so much the second.]

I hope someone does the same for you.

[Voice]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

...They wouldn't think that if they knew exactly who took me in...

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

On second thought, I'll pass. Thank you.

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

I'm...fine. I just...I need some time...

[Voice]

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

Perhaps...another time. I can't really think or talk straight right now...

[neverplaysfair]

Oh? You were the one who asked...

[unseenspy.livejournal.com]

I was being sarcastic.